This song is pretty straight forward as the lyrics go. It’s about an unhealthy, toxic relationship. Most things I write about are based on my own life experiences and this one was a little hard to relive. Writing these songs are a form of therapy for me to help get my thoughts out and get over past trauma. It’s hard enough having to live through trauma, but having to rethink and relive what happened also has its struggles. But I find after I write down my thoughts, it helps me let go and have closure. This one is about a past relationship I had where I thought it was love, but was really just toxic. From the outside it may be easy to see that something is toxic. It might even be obvious to the people involved, but it's not always easy to let go and leave something toxic. Getting out of a toxic relationship was probably the hardest thing I’ve had to do. We were young, stupid, and didn't know much about love or how to respect each other. We were both so numb from how toxic the relationship was that fighting and cheating were normal. But we were young and thought we were in love so none of us wanted to leave. It was almost better to feel numb together then go through the pain of never seeing them again. Although it was toxic, we still didn’t want to face the day where we wouldn't be in eachothers lives anymore. We knew it was toxic and so did everyone around us, but that's the only love we knew back then. It’s tough to relive memories like this, but it makes me appreciate where I am today. Those memories made me who I am today and I am thankful for that. And I hope they are doing well today. Sometimes it’s easy to focus on the negative, but at one point in time, those people that hurt you, once meant the world to you. They helped shape who I am and that’s important to me. I think it’s important to listen, forgive and let live. toxic