I wrote this about a day I'll never forget. It was Monday April 15th 2013. That was the day of the Boston marathon bombings. It was also the day I took acid for the first time.

I’ve never been one to take drugs or anything like that, but at the time, the people I was hanging out with wanted to try it so I just went with it, which was a terrible idea. It was Patriots day so we had it off from college classes. So a bunch of us got together by a lake near my childhood house and decided to try acid. That was the first drug I ever tried. I never smoked weed or anything else before so I had no experience with how drugs alter the mind. I quickly learned that I am terrified of hallucinogens lol. I guess you can say I had a bad trip and was terrified that I would feel like that forever. It felt like I was in a dream and couldn't get myself out of it. I was seeing weird things and my perception was completely morphed. Since I couldn't make it stop it really started to affect my mental state. During that time I was also in an unhealthy relationship which was also putting me in an even worse place.

Then one of the worst things to happen in history occurs. The Boston marathon bombing. Just 40 miles from where I am. That really put me into a panic. I remember getting updates on my phone, texts and calls from people asking if I'm safe. I'll never forget the updates and news headlines I saw on my phone when it was happening. I was spiraling into such a terrible head space, and now I thought the world was ending and that I was going to die. There was nothing I could do to make myself feel better or dig myself out of that panic. I remember vividly thinking about how much I appreciate my family and how I hope they are okay. That’s all I could keep thinking about until the drugs wore off.

My heart goes out to everyone who lost their lives, were injured, and family members of all those affected from the Boston marathon bombing. Thank you to all the responders and heroes of Boston who tried their best to take care of everyone in need and keep them safe. Massachusetts will always be my home and I couldn't be more thankful and blessed to be part of such a great and strong community.