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Some Nights
"Sometimes I mistake the taste of your lips with the fear of being alone"
Behind The Song
This song is about the months following a break up where I was cheated on. It’s about the conflicting thoughts of knowing you’re over someone, but then randomly you see something that reminds you of them, and all those past emotions come flowing through your mind. I started questioning who I was, I didn't know who I was not in a relationship. For me, sometimes it was hard to determine whether I was missing love, or just afraid of being lonely.
After a few months I was finally starting to feel okay with starting over, then the memories started flowing back and made me question what would I do if I ran into them again? Would I be able to handle the memories and emotions? So this song is basically about knowing you’re over someone but sometimes you can't help questioning if you want that person back.
At the time I struggled with alcohol abuse and my mental health. The second verse is referring to that. What I’m saying is if we’re all made in the image of God, was he an alcoholic and addicted to drugs, is that why I am the way I am? Is that why I struggle with my mental health?
Lyrics
Sometimes I mistake the taste
Of your lips with
The fear of being alone
I don't wanna die alone
Some nights I know I am over you
Thank God you're gone and
Some nights I wonder if you walked through the door
What the fuck I would do
If I would forget
All the cheating
All the lies
I’d drop to my knees and
Some nights I don't want you
I don't want you
Why do I want you
Yea I wanna do more than breathe to feel alive
If i'm made in your eyes
Did you drink yourself to sleep
After the pills to make you sane
Hoping “this one will never be like me”
Sometimes I mistake the taste
Of your lips with
The fear of being alone
I don't wanna die alone
Some nights I know I am over you
Thank God you're gone and
Some nights I wonder if I walked through the door
What the fuck you would do
Did you forget
All the cheating lies you spit
Right in my face
Some nights I don't want you
I don't want you
Why do I want you
So tell me what's the first thing
You think of when you're lonely
I know its not me
Was it ever me who was on your mind
When your lips were touching mine
Who am I without you
Some nights I know I am over you
Thank God you're gone and
Some nights I wonder if you walked through the door
What the fuck I would do
If I would forget
All the cheating
All the lies
I’d drop to my knees and
Some nights I don't want you
I don't want you
Why do I want you
Thanks for being here
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